LostIdentity

Not been sleeping well man.... woke up in the middle of the night yest to watch pool v.s. chelsea... then woke up 2hrs later to attend lab in the morning.... arghhh..... the feelin sux..... think im really not a "sleep little can make it" person... I MUST SLEEP or else i will feel damn wrong from top to bottom.... like i will say wrong things.... cannot think properly.... walk also majiam like going to fall sideways liddat..... ahhaha.... now i feel damn pei4 fu2 with pple who can survive on little sleep... pple like xy and matt.... damn power..... *salute*

okie.... shall go catch some sleep before i start studying for nano test tmr.... sobz.... zzzzz........

posted by heng @ 8:17 AM 2 comments

Dreams

Woke up with a headache today...... Slept for 9 hours tho...... Hmmm.....maybe slept too much.... Or cos got lotsa headlines and tests cramming up, so my brain got affected somehow..... =p

Jus reached home in dad's car..... was half sleeping but heard some rather routine but disturbing stuff..... Money it seems is always a concern..... Xz jus told me he already buying tics to Chicago.... Oh, how I wish I could go..... On the bright side, if my parents could help in my exchange to denmark...... I could well afford to pay for the trip to US..... But I can't really put my bet on my mum helping.....

Yep.... From the r/s between my bro and her..... It seems that I'd be better off doing things on my own.... It scares me how a mother can view things so seriously..... And I'm beginning to doubt whether starting a family is a gd thing, not tt it would happen to me anytime soon... As for those who wonder if my friendly daddy could help.... oh well.... I'd be glad if he can sustain his own expenses..... Hahha.....

I wanna travel!!! .....Arghhh....... But I might just have to settle for Europe next semester...... "Take it slowly boy..... Things would work out", says hengster......

posted by heng @ 10:25 AM 0 comments

Just had supper at Gombak.... 3 of us ordered mee goreng..... nic finished his.... wj finished more than half..... and i barely had a few mouthful...... not even half finished.... ha..... guess i really have no appetite.......

The truth really hurts..... but somehow.... it feels numb.... dunno wat to say or wat to feel really..... so it seems that things can easily be replaced.... when u lose ur wallet.... u simply get a new one.... when ur shoe worns out.... u buy another pair..... life's..... like dat i guess......

feel so alone rite now...... guess i should sleep soon..... shouldn't think too much..... have so much work waiting for me..... but i dunno how i would have the mood to finish them...... sux man.....

hengster feels shattered at this moment......
i wish i wasn't me...... really.......

posted by heng @ 4:55 PM 0 comments

Inspiring Cabby

Shared a cab home from west mall wif vijay and xy jus now after my guitar..... haha..... nowadays more liu xing take cab.... but think quite wu hua also..... cos i go home usually take 2 buses and 1 mrt... so its abt 3 bucks... if share cab maybe 4 or 5 bucks.... might as well right.... heh...

anyway.... this cabby uncle is one of a kind man.... me and vijay was chatting away... talking about some sch stuff.... and i was telling him about me having to use java in my cs module.... then the uncle started to talk excitedly about java..... all of a sudden he like spring to life liddat..... He asked us whether we use C, html, visualbasic, etc...... wow.... im amazed...... he even mentioned that he do his own coding (for wat i dunno.. hmmm)..... me and vijay looking at each other like.... "wow.... " i tot he was trying to "sian" us..... but apparently i think he is quite knowledgable.....

After vijay got off.... i continued asking him about some stuff.... hehe... cos my computer spoil mah... wah... and he gave me some advice..... which i think i also know lar.... like taking out all my parts and dusting them clean.... and he say must careful of remnant currents..... how they might affect your comp parts if u don ground them.... wah.... i din think it matter loh.... but anyway he v helpful.... telling me abt wad i should do...... hmmm..... make me feel so inspired to repair my ailing desktop.... tho i like chuck it aside now.....

You all might think he may be some man in his 30's or 40's..... but no loh.... he's like 50plus at least.... got 60 i think.... and his english v gd also.... haha.... so inspiring..... maybe he was an ex-engineer or smthing.... then now retire become cabby.... lol....

hmm.... i love monday evenings..... the guitar lessons will make me feel like learning more.... and today the uncle make me encouraged to repair my comp......

heh..... i guess sometimes.... happiness really stems from one being able to maintain a healthy mentality... refrain from thinking too much abt unhappy stuff.... perhaps its really true that one's happiness lies in his/her own hands... albeit the circumstances that fate puts you in..... oh well.... quoted from xue "xiu1 xi2 shi4 wei4 le4 zou3 geng4 yuan3 de4 lu4"..... i find it very meaningful..... =)

posted by heng @ 1:30 PM 2 comments

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This is my longest school day since beginning of semester.... from 8 to 6..... although only like 1 lect, 1 tut and 1 presentation.... tired man.... and my stomie still bloating from all the food i ate today:: 8am mac breakfast.... , shortly at 11... went holland v ate crystal jade...... then jus now after lect.... went mac eat dinner again......

wapiang.... 2 mac meals a day!!! feels damn gay lar..... and sick too..... don wanna touch mac for a week man.... eeekss...... tired....

posted by heng @ 12:30 PM 0 comments