You'll Never Walk Alone....
Wow.... i dunno wad to say about the match on thursday morning.... it was simply unbelievable, miraculous, emphatic, .... the list of description goes on and on.... what an epic final.... esp for all the liverpudians out there.... It is really like a fairy tale come true.......
Yes lady luck was shining on liverpool but all winning teams need tt type of blessings as well.... haha.... I can imagine the atmosphere at the Istanbul Stadium.... the ecstasy of the fans.... how long have all of us yearned for the european cup.... nvm our lack lustre league performance.... nvm our inconsistent domestic form.... nvm the lack of depth in our limited squad.... what was there is the fighting spirit, the desire to win back the cup tt we last held 21 yrs ago.... the courage to defy all odds to win the prestigious Euro Champs League.... It was simply AMAZING...
If we consider the quality tt the current squad have.... probably only Gerrard, Alonso, Garcia, Carragher, and Hypya could make the grade.... tt's not even half the team.... so the fact tt we are able to reach the finals and even had the never say die attitude to turn back the tides.... is awesome.... simply awesome.... tt's y i've supported this club since pri sch... ahhh finally we are the kings of europe again..... muahhaha...
kk think i sound bit over the moon here.... jus feeling happy for the club i support since childhood.... next season would be even better!!! Go Rafa Go!! Go Reds Go!!
In Search of Spiritual Contentment....
I am as lost as I was maybe 4 years ago, when i just finished my A levels, awaiting call-up to the army..... The impending question in my mind was " what should i study for my university degree?" Two obvious choices were architecture and engineering..... and i chose engineering out of obvious reasons which i gather most of you would have known.... If you ask me now whether I regret it.... I cannot tell you straight that I don't.... but I would say that if given a second chance I would have taken that same path again.... Not that my interest lies in engineering, in fact, my interest lies in the arts......
Currently.... 4 years down the road.... many things happened..... big small... eventful, uneventful.... to me, my friends, my loved ones, and everyone else i know.... we are all living in this constantly changing world... that is the only thing that doesn't change.... the phenomenon of things evolving and changing slowly or rapidly around us...... Time do not wait.....
In the past, I used to have cultivated the ability to put my past behind me..... but many years down the road.... perhaps i was living a rather undisturbed and "blissful" life for all these years.... I seemed to have lost this ability.... the strength to put what's happened all behind..... I think running away from your problems do not work at all.... It is only when one accept that what has happened is inevitable.... as somethings in life are..... that we are able to really move on in life.....
I am tired of running away from unhappy thoughts and memories..... tired of trying so hard in making myself feel better.... tired of being where I am now...... I do not want to live my life mourning for what has happened and is gone...... I just hope to.....
accept what has happened gracefully..... and know that sometimes..... acceptance is the best remedy....... I do not want to fight for things which is not meant for me anymore.....
I just want to be me......
currently reading "Tuesday with Morrie"..... I only read a few pages but already feel that it is a good book.... will give a short book review soon.... haha..... *nerdy look*
Frustrations
I feel like smashing someone's head now..... anyone's .... mine also can..... ggrhhhh this is the only day i come back early and i cannot play dota..... no it is not tt i am damn addicted to the game.... its jus tt after trying 2 times.... i kena lagged out!!! which means i waited for 2 hours plus liao.... wth..... i am frustrated bcos everytime "he" borrow things.... i will feel tt my stuff is sorta different...
tt time borrowed my lappie and download sp2 without telling me.... made me so du lan... then now use liao.... my internet connection and lappie like so laggy.... it was working fine when i was using lor.... walao..... i know i may sound unreasonable.... but but.... sigh.... i'm jus trying to find some scapegoat lar..... i so tired.... wanna play a few games then go and rest mah.... y can't jus lemmi do tt..... =(
no outsider will understand how i feel.... or rather how my family feel towards him as of now..... no words can explain the frustrations and pek chekness he brings.... i can't even eat properly in front of him jus now.... yy?? i dunno.... maybe i'm tired myself..... so easily agitated.... yar should be liddat bah.....
And to sum up a screwed up day.... my creative Muvo is spoilt... doesn't even start..... walao.... its only 1/2 a yr...... maybe i throw ard too many times liao.... now i dunno whether still under warranty not..... aiyah.... bad day lar....... feel like swearing now...... wat's wrong with me????
Great Movie.... Satisfied but tired.....
Think i totally enjoyed the show...... don't think there's any part of the show that I would complain about..... yeah.... actually catched "Return of The Sith" sneak preview at West Mall Eng Wah with xy, xz, ys, and wj..... tho we actually sat apart.... 3 in one row and another 2 in another... haha cos we sorta bought the tics late.... and it is a Star Wars movie preview!! Obviously the tickets will be hot lah!!! heh...
Hmm... feeling v tired after the show.... and there was still time for me to catch the last train... so decided not to join the guys for supper.... Have to wake at 6 anyway.... sigh.... been sleeping v little lately... 4 hours everyday since work..... and its beginning to drain on me.... i could feel my heart thumping hard against my chest by the end of the movie.... a sign that told me to faster go home and rest.... haha....
A part of me will always be with her......
no matter how many times i try to forget......
no matter how i fill my time.....
no matter how i attempt to live without her.....
i guess someway or another.... even if i do manage to find my happiness elsewhere
a part of me remains there......
super tired liaoz.... shall go and bathe and sleep..... tomorrow is thursday..... nearing weekend.... haha..... looking forward but then again not really at times......
nite pple...... hugz...
What a waste of time
First day at work was crappy.... I'm actually writing on a piece of rough paper now in the office... yes u din't hear wrongly.... i am "writing" literally, not typing on keyboard.... ( this post was being transferred to the blog while at home...)
I had no internet access, sits just at the entrance, and have no idea whatsoever what I'm supposed to do. Earlier I was actually assigned a task but as I had no idea about the background info, a colleague passed me a manual which is like text-book thick!! The entire pile of notes look so dry can! C'mon, I've just finished my exams and you expect me to look through so much stuff?? Haha.... spare me the ordeal pls.... 放了我吧。。。。。
Hmm... heard that one is not supposed to talk about work publicly, esp on blogs. So I shan't say any further about work.... Think as long as one never disclose any confidential information, it should be kinda alright bah..... not as if i know any secrets..... zzz....
Sigh... i really wonder how i am going to tahan this for 2 mths... haha.... someone help me!!
Anyway, think i read somewhere that Sporean girls think that we guys whines a lot nowadays.... especially after our NS.... Judging from this post, I guess they are right.... for me at least.... heh... I'm a big whiner..... but so what.... blueh =p....
Crazy Addictions
Woah.... 转眼间 its almost the end of the week liao..... friday morning now..... 0356.... haha..... and i'm blogging now together with xy, with matt "OWNING" beside me. kao.... i went to do some big business and matt cannot tahan the temptation to start playing first..... he jus join game as soon as we came back from supper..... 真不愧 die hard dota fan!!
haha ya so while i wait for him to finish his game.... here i am blogging.... actually nothing much to write about anyway.. been playing dota since i bot the game last friday.... EVERYDAY... haha no life lar..... but wth..... nothin much to do anyway..... jus enjoy now before work start next monday..... feels bit sian to go work..... but i guess its good to keep one occupied....
hmm..... sometimes you wonder y other pple can have such a good time going abroad and stuff during holis.... while others like mi get stuck in spore..... cos of $$..... haha but nvm lar.... no need compare..... life's jus diff for each and everyone of us... which is y everyone is special..... heh..... we jus have to live with whatever we have and cherish em while they last.... of course we have to fight for rights which brings happiness to our lives.... but sometimes when we have already put in our best, there is no need to feel sad tt we don't get what we have aimed to achieve.... think it jus means tt we are not fated to experience or possess them... that's all. =)
haha..... supposed to tok a bit about my dota experience so far.... erm exp as in what i feel lar.... i know i have no experience to speak of since its only been a wk of playin dota. haha.... ya but its kinda fun esp so many of ya friends play together..... haha.... real funny when you see some of the comments being said throughout the game..... heh......
but sometimes you get v discouraging remarks as well..... so sad..... when pple keep criticizing you.... i mean i know its meant for me to learn lar.... but but..... so sad sometimes to hear..... haha ya but i'm learning slowly..... heee.....
kk think shan't tok too much abt this liao.... quite duh to tok abt dota on blog rite..... =p
Do we have our rights?
Have been pondering over this issue for some time oreadi..... ever since the infamous incident of the PSC scholar making racist remarks on his blog. He was then and is still being bombarded with criticisms from many sources....
Hmm.... i was jus thinking.... What use is of a blog if it ain't being used to express one's feelings, to talk about one's innermost thoughts and views? It is supposed to be an online diary, and yes, anyone with some "awareness" should be more tactful in their use of words on their blogs... I mean, they know that it is public and anyone over the net can access to whateva they write.... so naturally, common sense tells us tt we should exercise due caution in our words.
I think it is basic courtesy to show some respect to pple reading ur blog.... but sometimes we just wanna vent our anger and frustrations by writing things out... and most of the times.... the entries are meant for close frens whom u have given ur blog address to.... who the hell would think so much abt strangers bumping into ur site and feeling sore about comments you make??? Even if there were some racist or sexist remarks, they probably would have been targeting specific individuals which the blogger had contact with.... and words are spilled based on a moment of impulse..... sigh.... why must people kick up such a fuss over small comments from individuals??
Sometimes i wonder if those who actually complain about what others write on their blogs are really 吃饱没事做。。。 nothing better to do issit?? go and stalk other pple blog for wad? ggrhhh i really find some of those who kena complain cos they commented things which didn't sound politically correct, v ke lian..... i mean, c'mon they are jus humans trying to express their views on their personal blogs? so why stop them? y kick up such a fuss? people.... just relax and read others' blogs with a pinch of salt ya? don be so narrow minded can?
haha..... if any of the authorities read this entry.... they must be laughing lar..... i think they also find it absurd that they have to deal with such stuff.... as in really bo liao loh.... haha.... don think the PSC scolar is truely at fault in expressing his views.... no doubt his racist attitude needs to be changed.... the issue is jus tt his attitude and character needs to improve, but tt doesn't mean he doesn't have the freedom of speech.... so pple who complain.... pls ask urself if u have the right to criticize blogs written by pple u don even know.... in the first place they were not meant for u loh!!
haha..... to protect myself.... i jus wanna say tt this entry is about the freedom of expressing one's views on blogs.... and not related to any other extremist views which i shall not explicitly say.
yep tt's all i've gotta say..... jus disappointed over how narrow-minded some pple can be.... tt's all.... heh.... SAYONARA~
Post Exam Syndromes....
These are some of the post exam syndromes that one commonly experience..
1) Hard to sleep beyond 12 noon, even though it has been soooo long since we had such luxuries!! (actually not v long also.... but it sure felt damn long!)
This is due to exam-bio clock of waking up early.... (varies from person to person...=p)
2) Diffult to sleep early either cos u know tt u can party like hell!!!
(not tt i party but wat i mean is u celebrate and play like hell till past midnight!)
3) Dota....... jus keep going and going until sky is almost bright liao...... hmmm.... i shud play more this week cos next week i going start work liao..... sianz..... but better than staying home for the hols and having no $$ to spend......
4) Play and play until u die drop dead..... =p
5) And lastly..... u forget all the f#$%ing bad memories and jus enjoy!!!
haha..... u all must be thinking i v bo liao..... writing such stuff in the middle of the night... or rather in the morning.... 5am lei..... i can hear my parents' alarm clk ringing liao....
久的不去，新的不来。。。。。
Haha.... many of you must be wondering y Mr Kwek only sleep 3 hours and what's he up to being online at 9 am in the morning.... haha dunno lei..... jus feel like waking up to do unfinished stuff.... remember what i said last time abt getting rid of unwanted memories?? well.... it is well underway...
packed all the stuff (toys, cards, cologne, ticket stubs...... everything) into a big red plastic bag and is about to throw it into the storeroom..... contemplated about throwing them away.... but its really not me to be so wasteful ya? haha... jus in case next time when i am old i can look at the stuff and laugh about it..... hehe.....
and.... was deleting away the photos.... some of them v nice..... really...... haha tears dropped as i viewed them for one last time... heh...... its nice if i can save them somewhere..... but i don think i have the energy to do it liao..... *press delete*
phew!!! what a relief peeps.... i hope to start afresh from now on...... right here, right now.....
